Ayunithebest.......



i spend my saturdays with these two dorks after two weeks of not meeting them. i have been sick and trying to juggle work and outdoor activities that its getting a bit hectic in my life. i managed to divide some time for min and feli for a long outing doing what we always love to do. WALK. we have always like to walk. ever since year one of poly days till now. everywhere we go, we walk. did i ever tell you how felicia make us walk from entrance of sentosa to siloso beach at wee hours of saturday morning and also how muhaimin made us walk from orchard to esplanade in an hour. at least i make them walk in circles to find lau pa sat =) hahaha. i fnished work earlier than expected and accompanied eugenia for a short lunch before i met my besties at orchard. i was running late as usual and i rushed all the way from bugis to orchard because i was pretty hungry. it was nice to see them. i was missing them =)



we had ayam penyet for lunch at lucky plaza. omg. my stomach is now in pain because i ate alot of sambal belanchan. had a nice gossip and talk over lunch. as usual felicia will be nagging about how people bully her at work. i dont understand how that girl can do things that she dont like and still laugh at it like nobody's business. she is becoming LIKE ME. horrible. muhaimin is botak as usual. still silly with his own police antics. sometimes i feel muhaimin has grown in his own ways. aww. my friends are turning 21 these year. so fast. getting back to the story, we had window shopping period today! i just had my pay and i was craving to buy a new bag since i need it. i was eyeing on that charles and keith bag but in the end, i bought a MANGO bag after visiting three outlets. guess how much it cost.

65 BUCKS. so much can. for a branded bag from MANGO. its white =) and cute.

suits my personality. hahaha. i felt the pain of flying money but i was glad i managed to buy a bad like so finally. went forever 21 to get a new purple top. i really want to change my style.lets see if i can change it in 5 months because after april, i will REBOND my hair and make it more neater because sara is already nagging about my permy hair =( sad. we bought more stuffs from BODYNITS because it was having this crazy sale. a blouse cost 60 bucks was selling at 18 bucks. so happy =) by the time we were beat out, felicia had to go to meet her friends for supper.poor girl. we could have go clubbing together. WAHAHA. no la, i am no more a wild girl. as if i was. we also managed to catch a preview of CHINGAY. omg. freaking nice! i will go for chingay next year i tell you because i could feel the excitement among the crowds. you guys should catch it. i think its worth the money somehow.



it was time to go home and min and me decided to have supper after we left felicia.we were super hungry that we so badly wanted a mcdonald and min suggest to go funan it mall instead. this boy anyhow assume everywhere is 24hours. in the end, we were the last person to place orders and i couldnt eat my MCSPICY w/o lettuce add cheese. when i ordered, all looked at me like one kind. WAHAHA. okay okays, i know i was a bit too much. i ended up eating mega mcspicy while min had prosperity burger wrapped in mcgirdles wrapper. hahaha. so funny. it was a nice supper and talk. we packed up and decided to take taxi home. aaahhh. such a long day, it has been a long time since i last reach home at near to 12mn. best still, abah never scold me =) maybe because i know how to go home straight away after work nowadays. haha. im trying to learn to change my ways. to be better somehow. slowly i will do things but i will still be the same.

anyways,



its bn bothering me that he never fails to stop calling.its been two mths since i last talk to him. he doesnt know y i nvr contact me but everytime he never stops trying. never. he even called home & i asked mom, amirul and grannie to say im sleeping.it hurts me to lie but i hv no reason to talk to him. everyone says i have the right. when he made me wait for 1 year, i nvr did say anything. instead i hope he wld call. everyday i prayed he would call after standing by for him for 6 years or so. thats where i learnt the meaning of hope. things have turned around in such a way that im not in his situation. grannie loves him alot. she could tell his sincerity more than ace. grannie just like to reprimand me when i wouldnt pick up. she doesnt understand why.i dont like it when she compares him and ace also. they are different.



but i started to compare too. the more i sit down and think, the more i see things clearly. which one was there for me when i need the most and which one was not. i know i am in situation that shows these two guy want me or so because i always got friendship over relationship but when it comes to being there, its weird when you start to think what may seem it is the case, isnt. i know who i love but its weird knowing love isnt enough to substain something. it takes patience,trust and understanding. you can dont love a person and learn to love but you can never love and dont learn how to be patient, understanding and trustworthy because its all like building a HDB flat. i believe thats what makes marriages longer because there is something more than that.



i have been observing all the guys whom i talk. some are interested in knowing, some just need a listening ear and some just want to have fun but all these people. i think they are all looking for e same thing which is to find someone they can communicate and love. i know i was being a blondie in most cases but its fun to learn about men. they are an interesting lot. oh wells. im still not looking for anyone. its silly for me to do that. i shall ask my mom to arrange marriage me instead. hahaha!

and for that guy.

i have always thought your late mom send me to look after you. thats why i became your best friend from long time ago but this time, you have to do things your own. just like you have always done without me. i have done my part and im sure your late mom will be happy to know if you are trying your best too. you always be my first guy bestie. thats a promise.

oh wells. life's tough. some things you got to bitch about and somethings people got to bitch you. got to go sleep now. tomorrow is WEDDING DATE AT CHANGI! since when i become more family orientated?! haha! have a nice weekend.