Ayunithebest.......



SENTOSA was fun =) we saw muscle men, camped out at palawan beach,played frisbee, had sarpino's pizza & coffee bean and went home a happy and tired girl =)i have a feeling i will be going there again with dewi today. shall blog about it when muhaimin send me the 200 pictures we took. WAHAHA. recently my dream has been coming true. the other time i dreamt about feli getting mad over no reason at us two days ago and it came true. a few weeks ago, i dreamt about mr nurse talking to me and we went out for a date after two weeks. so funny.

i dont really get dreams but if i do, it comes true. somesort. i think GOD gave me a gift to feel. its unpredictable really, shall not say much! its funny how guys would like to talk to me and then i push them away really hard.i feel like an evil monster sometimes and im not those types who talk to guys just for the sake of filling the hole. when i broke up with ace also, the only guy i talk to is muhaimin.others are like silly boys who have only ONE thing in their mind.

can we be special? i like you. you are nice and one of a kind.

BLA BLA BLA. like your head arh like. where got people like after one day of talking. siao. i only know you for how long want to control me somemore. excuse moi. you are not my husband okay. if i marry you, then its another thing. HAHA. i cant believe it, how can i even talk like nobody's business. those were the times. those were the times. now i am diferent especially to guys that ya ya papaya to me. remember that guy who had a girlfriend that said he hasnt any and trying to look.that same guy that had one and broke up and actually it was his fiance.

bloody hell. i still remember how he trick me okays. think i forget, no way. lucky i no feelings for him. i still talk to him of course because i usually talk to people who need a listening ear. he asked me out two days ago and obviously he made it sound in such a way that he wont force me to go lunch but he loves to have me there. so funny and so i replied.

sorry. i have something on. next time.

WAHAHAHAHAHA. smart okays. and the other time he want to bring me to marina barrage since no one wanted to bring me there. you know what i say,

you go with your friends la. i will only go with MY friends and SPECIAL one.

its like super funny. i have never been bad in my life except for this kind of people. imagine me saying that to many guys. OMG. so bad. but seriously, i dont want to waste people's emotions and neither i want to waste mine. its not because i have ace to talk too that now, i abandon people. i dont even talk to ace much unless i feel like it. i used to call him everyday when we were together but now i learnt to call when i need it. which i normally dont. HAHA.

true, i have been lonely and clueless ever since i break up but never in my life, i thought about filling my heart with something that wasnt even my type. i feel lonely now even but i know im not goin to be happy doing that. why add unhappiness. i also dont understand. i stand to lose a lot in life, i know but i think in terms of living it with patience, i think i deserve a pat. when i get married one day after being living life, i tell my children that being good does pay but doing it with patience and sincerity.

come to think of it, im glad i broke up. its actually my fault i broke up. its true he doesnt give me the attention and time i needed to feel that i was worth being with him but if i took the time to learn to be more independant and trust worthy, things may have been different. i would have been different but breaking up taught me to do things on my own. to have my own ideals and to love unconditionally. i learnt how patient and forgiving i am. i have learnt how i can stand up to strangers and i have learnt to stop going esplanade when i am sad. i do have a lot of fallbacks but im glad i have my close ones beside me =)

okays. shall upload about sentosa soon!